It's not hard to imagine a sound slumber. Snoozing and Woozing and Dreaming. It's just so difficult to actually experience it. So, here I am again alone late at night as the rest of my family sleeps watching bad TV, trying to read verses in my Bible but succoming to the calling of the DVR and other such silliness that will take away the thoughts and worries that creep in the dark. Why is it that I remember everything I forgot to do during the day at 1am? That's number one of what keeps me up at night- those dumb little things that I didn't do. The one phone call I didn't make, the i that was not dotted, the sentence not finished. Whatever. So, out of desperation, I have started this blog. Who knows how long I will keep it up. Knowing me, this could be the only post I ever post. But I am the antithesis of all things cliche such as the put it off, self defeating, not finish anything type. At least that is how I REALLY am. But that is not how most see me. I do come off as all together to most.
I would love to be able to really read my Bible on a night like tonight but my head swims and try as I might, there doesn't seem to be much focus. Though, not a morning person and not really able to complete a sentence before 8am, I do have an amazing ability to read the printed word in the wee hours and focus totally on what I read. But that 's good I suppose seeing as how there are over a hundred verses about reading God's Word in the morning.
I am a Christian. I love Jesus. That's the long and the short of it. Beyond that, I'm a pastor's wife, mother of girls, church administrator- the new word for secretary. full time work. full time ministry. full time insanity. I've no idea how I ended up here. Tis true that the Lord uses the foolish things of the world to shame the wise for I am the master fool. And so, I will be used. Because I am such an outrageous fool. Oh, you don't know.
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